The slowly twitching burning feeling in the back of the one time we kissed with the lights on when we were seventeen and there was no other way for us to shave without exposing ourselves to the flexing bulge of the hatred of out peers that cut so deeply I could hear it click against the bone in my spine that connects me to my hips that always seem to be moving when I remember dancing with you when we danced alone after the prom in the cold spring evening we both remember as the one night we were finally young and free from the feelings of responsibility for the future that we knew were pressing down on our frail minds that were consumed with fear about our social standing and out relationship to a god that neither of us understood but pretended we did just so other people would think we did so they would trust us and let us be who we were which is really too bad because it hurt so much keeping ourselves from ourselves just for the sake of a few people we would never really see again except in passing at the supermarket where they worked until they could find better jobs in places that we wouldn't go if they payed us.